Well today is Mother’s Day and I find myself reflecting on what type of mother I am. I often wonder if my children will sit around when they are older and say that I was a good mother…. I love my children unconditionally and want the best for them. As mothers we all have big dreams for our children. We want them to be doctors, lawyers, accountants, teachers, engineers, etc… As I look at my precious children, I want them to find true peace and happiness. I want them to be what they were created to be and not what I want them to be. When you hold that sweet baby for the first time you want to protect them from all the evil in this world. The reality is that no one can protect their children 24/7. As a mother, this is so hard because when they are hurt in this world you begin to question the job that you did.
I sit here on this mother’s day and reflect on this past year with my children. I wish that I had done some things better and think well I did “that” pretty well. This year has been full of changes for our family….I see the improvements and the setbacks. I think how far we have come and how much further we have to go. I am learning not to compare myself against other mothers because we are all different and so are our children. I am learning to take the “horrible” things that have happened and figure out how to make that heartache into making a difference and teaching them that it doesn’t define them. I am forgiving the people that have been cruel or hurt my children so that my children see that my eyes are full of love and compassion for others. At the end of the day, I want them to say that I loved others with real love…I want them to say that I saw others thorough the eyes of compassion without judgement. As I see people that have hurt my children, I have found compassion in my heart to say “I wonder what their story is…” You see everyone has a story and that story needs to be heard. As a mother, I wish that every child could feel the protection and love that I have for my children. I pray that we all will begin to see each other through the loving eyes of a mother…. I pray that I will look in the mirror everyday and think how can I be a better mother today for my precious angels……
